Welcome to my blog, I am so glad you are here!
I wanted to write a different article to start, to share a bit of my story for you to learn a few things about me, private things and the reasons why I’ve created my blog etc…
I just to say that this article is different than the others as it is very personal. It’s definitely not for everybody. It’s my story, a little bit of my past. I wanted to share this to give you a heads up about where I come from: my only goal here is to inspire you to go after your dream, whatever you have been through in life.
Enjoy the reading!
So who am I?
My name is Sarah, a French country girl in love with traveling and self-development.
Raised by a single mum and with 3 brothers (is not as bad as it sounds). Because of this, I’ve developed a kind of hard character, don’t know if it’s good though. Don’t worry, I am very soft inside 😁 and I actually hate hurting people!
My Pisces Moon makes me a kind, caring and hypersensitive person. (Yes I am a big fan of astrology.) Just to be transparent with you, I have a lot of flaws, (of course you would tell me!) and my boyfriend will definitely confirm that! 😐
Haa and as a good French, I am a “complainer”… I know you have heard this about us. And I confirm, I am, a lot.
If not, what I can say is that I don’t have a typical path and that’s the reason why I wanted to create this blog.
I didn’t work 5 years in corporate, I didn’t do a MBA. Faaaar from this!
I was still completely lost one year ago, looking for myself.
In my family, nobody is entrepreneur. Everybody has a normal 9-5 job. Very basic, very classic, very simple. Money has never been our strenght, it was even a hard topic. Though, I’ve decided to do otherwise and break the cycle. As you can imagine, it is not an easy task and I had to get rid of a lot of negative thoughts and believes! I still do. It’s a long time work and process.
And that’s why I really wanted to share this little story because I do not come from an easy family, I don’t have an easy path, neither an easy childhood & teenage hood. I struggled a lot. Nothing was meant to be this way and still, it is not perfect and it will probably never be.
To give you an idea:
- My parents divorced when I was not even 8.
- My 3 brothers and I grew up with my mum, which by the way just broke up with my dad so her state of mind were absolutely not perfect. She fell in a depression which was really hard for us, probably even worse for my twin brother and I, as we are the youngest.
- I was literally depressed at the age of 12-13. The reasons? My relationship with my mum was a disaster, I was not seeing my dad anymore, my big brother was an asshole that wanted to control everything in the house. (Obviously, there was no dad anymore, he needed to take his place. I never accepted it and our relationship became very difficult.)
- Because of those moments, my character became harder and harder, I was lonely, and met some people that were not really good to hang out with.
I was not going the right way if I can say, and it lasted for 2-3 years.
Because of all these reasons, I became very private, very shy, always on the defense mode, I created this shell and just a few people would actually enter my bubble. The problem is, today there is still a lot of this. I still am a very private person, who doesn’t share a lot. My past made me an introvert and a very observant person. Though, I am working on it a lot for a little bit more than a year now. I’ve improved a lot already, that’s why I feel like I can share with you my experience through this blog.
It could have been worse.
What “saved me” at that time is that I met my first boyfriend which I thought, by the way, that I will spend the rest of my life with him at the age of 14! 😂
This relationship kind of saved me from turning even worse, really. As I was really focus on him, I absolutely wanted to go in the same school so I worked my ass off in class to be able to follow him. Thanks to him, thanks to this story, it allowed me to turn better. I ended up in a good school instead of I don’t know where, I became a better student and I actually studied.
But that’s not the reason I stayed straight after that, of course not! I met other toxic people after, obviously 😊
This is just a little bit of my loooong story. I wanted to share this because it was never easy.
But my point is, even if you come from a toxic environment, even if you had a very hard life, you can still create your future. And that’s the beauty of life. You are responsible of your own future.
- You can’t change the past but you can learn from it.
- You can’t change the past but you can create your future.
- You can’t change the past but you can accept it and forgive it.
And that’s what I did.
I accepted, I forgave, I learned and I let go.
If you live in the past, you can’t take control of your future. You need to let it go and work to achieve your dreams.
We are all in a mission and we are just passing by here, on earth. We are not eternal, so better take the most out of our life to ENJOY and BE HAPPY!
I really wrote these lines from the bottom of my heart, and I shared a little bit of my story to show you that you can do this too. You can go for what you want, you just need to do some adjustment on the way but it is worth it and you will not regret it.
If you want to know a little more about me, check out my story page, I shared different stuff there!
To finish it, I just want to mention that I am still working on myself, I still need to improve my thoughts. It has been hard all along, it is still hard sometimes but I never gave up. I had the opportunity to stop everything but I didn’t. My purpose is much bigger than me.
It will be hard, especially to face yourself. But never give up, the reward at the end will be amazing.
If you want to discuss about this topic with me, I will be very happy to do so because I’ve been through stuff and maybe I can just listen, or I can help you finding answers. I am not a coach or anything like that, I am just a human who wants the happiness of people.
Take care of yourself, nobody else will do it for you. ❤